I assure you, it’s not.
Great, this is turning out to be a fitness blog. BUT I assure you, it’s not.
Today is such a good day and I’m almost afraid to celebrate it. Then I thought, why the hell not?
During gloomy days I take my time wallowing in the sadness. I kind of absorb everything and endure through it, because I know that if I didn’t “finish” feeling it, there would be a day wherein I regret not experiencing the whole experience. Sounds weird, I know, but I am just like that. In everything I experience, I make sure to take my fill. Whether it be a good thing or a bad thing, I just take it all in. When there’s a view, I make sure to absorb every detail. When there’s a heart break, I make sure to feel the saddest feeling I can ever feel. And then I shut it all off.
I am what you can call a very sensual person. Meaning, I use all my senses passionately and to the fullest. Well, not always, but most of the time. My eyesight has become blurred in the past few years of overusing it, but every time I wear glasses or contacts, I make sure to observe everything. Sometimes I intentionally not wear my glasses, just so I could shut out everything my eyes see, because sometimes, I feel like I’m seeing too much but absorbing too little. Think of it like being in a mall… you see a lot things but only a few items will catch your attention, intrigue you, or make you want to buy it. I feel the same way with people. I see a lot during my travels, but I only catch a few ones who let their emotions show in their faces, expressions, and body language. I try to interpret them and study them, but sometimes it takes a while to see something worthwhile.
The same goes with my sense of hearing. I love ear-gasmic music and sounds. Every instrument strikes a chord deeply that it reaches my soul. The sounds of a buzzing city, or a calming breeze… they make me feel alive – more human.
It goes on and on, but the important thing is to realize that…it all matters.
Everything I experience will matter. So I better make the best out of it.