Will this work now?
I have a goal.
At this point nothing works, and I have lost it. I couldn’t seem to get off that 135 to 140 weight. I wanted to go lower, but I can’t. I have tried setting up habits but… haven’t fully dedicated myself to it yet. My doctor is right, I need to mature. As in now. So in the spirit of being mature, today will commence the no-go training, Paleo style. I only have to remember to train. So yeah, don’t worry about problems that don’t need worrying…
What do I do with all the stuff I bought? Take it home one by one. The food that is there now? Eat only the “Go” Foods. If he catches me at a bad time? Be strong. But work at it as soon as possible. What will you do about your life right now? Maybe that is the real question I need to ask. So right now? I will exercise at 5 o'clock, do a level 4 toning routine. And then I will eat after workout. I will eat the pork sparerib and one chicken, and then I’m done. For the whole day tomorrow I will not eat. Intermittent Fasting baby. I should not care about anything except finishing my goal for the day.
One thing more that is bothering me is my money problem. This is stressing me out. I feel like the fog has cleared. I need to be at my optimal condition right now, because I am supporting him. The system requires that I fix any problem as it comes, so I won’t have to worry about it in the future. I have an idea that I kinda work on a daily basis, and everyday I need to find ways to motivate myself. This is my rock bottom, and I know I have been here a lot of times already, but as always, when you hit rock bottom, there’s no other way to go but up. I am proud because I have already gotten the mindset that I need to focus, so what’s gonna change is that I have to keep on checking myself about this 2 things every minute:
- Think about how to enhance Mac’s recovery.
- You are invincible. Nothing can stop you from getting thin. Go or No Go can save your life. Keep training until you build the endurance to resist relapsing.